52. My name is Orla

I have been living in Shanghai for a few years.

On St. Patrick’s Day, I asked myself how Irish I felt.

I am from Derry and it’s a Northern Irish thing to feel inferior.

I realized how different I am when I was living in England. We react differently, express ourselves differently, have a different vocabulary. But I don’t feel Irish because I am protestant.

The inferior complex probably comes from our reputation. People assume we are gun-toting terrorists.

My French Mother in law, after asking me what I had studied for a degree and what job I held, went on to tell me that as there were more women than men in Ireland, I was obviously a war refugee who had come to France to find a husband.

Amid the chaos and paradoxes of Shanghai there is a flow and I love that.

In Shanghai, I am in neutral territory

Susan- Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

51. My Name is Philip.

I consider myself a repetitive character, I adore deadlines as long as it is a task to completed in the past, on numerous occasions, something repetitive that I’ve done before. I shake my head vigorously in conversations, which appears in disagreement. My real intention is to get through the other persons conversation as quick as possible. Once this is achieved, I can commence talking again. MY sentences often begin with a statement of “A funny thing is…” to try capture the attention of my listener. I like to observe the foreign media by watching the changes in headlines on my RSS feeder, I believe there is a secret hidden message, of the truth being delivered, which only I can see again and again.

Ken – Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

50. My name is Bartholomew.

I’m a reserved individual.

Cooking is my only passion in life. I found my life before Shanghai very stressful, as I had to drive my kids around to various activities. It was very uncomfortable, I always peed myself in the car, it wasn’t a choice, as I’m afraid to use public toilets and could never pee outdoors in case somebody saw me. After being in Shanghai I’m not afraid anymore, as I witness people doing this all the time, especially women. It’s quite liberating to pee in the streets, everyone should do it.

Life can be great in Shanghai, as help is so cheap, I use an Ayi all the time, and spend my days going to museums and for lunch. Once or twice a week I arrive home late and very drunk. Inside I feel very much the clown, a contrast to my reserved self, inside I cry all the time, even now I am both sad to leave China and unhappy to arrive in a new place.

Ken – Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

49. My name is Thaddeus

I immediately feel doubt about all the decisions I make in life. Even now, my decision to be here is doubtful. I doubt the people around me, it is not from distrust, more to do with lack of interest. I’m just not that interested, in reflection I realise I’m no longer an interesting being. Enjoying life is important, so I like to hunt, it allows me to combine my passion for food, animals and wellness. As a teacher I make a lot of sacrifices, one of the biggest is to do a job that is low paid, this is the biggest sacrifice of all, to work for nothing. I think when you doubt people you can treat them differently, like my father who took out a loan under my name, and spent it all. I discovered it, when the police came to my door with the local bank manager. It was then I realised my family were corrupt, i can no longer trust them and I doubt every sincere thing they say.

Ken – Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

48. My name is James

I’m afraid of the past. Or at least in fear of what it might be if revisited.

As a child I loved food, adored snacking on crisps and chocolate. I used to prepare chocolate and crisp sandwiches for my friends, on bread topped with melted cheese.

My mother said I was never good at it, so I went into teaching. I always looked for easy jobs, I didn’t really care about the pupils, just didn’t like to work long hours, I’d prefer to be at the beach. I’m not fond of Shanghai, and would like to leave once I have qualified here. I do fear going back to the UK, and would prefer if I was going somewhere warm to teach surfing, live on a beach and open a food bar, where I would serve crisp and chocolate sandwiches to the local surfers.

Ken – Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

47. My name is Andrew.

I’m an obsessive compulsive liar. It cannot be retained, I lie all the time. I tell my employers I have an MBA degree, and that I was married to a Chinese woman

I don’t and I’m not.

I never even finished high-school. It was a lie to get a job.

I told my girlfriend of five years that I loved her – when I didn’t really, I just wanted her to apply for my visa so that I could get into China and have somewhere to stay. I believe the source to my mistreatment of women is related to my parents’ divorce, my father lied to my mother about another woman he had a child with. I live a lonely life, in my tiny one bedroom apartment, I live near an abattoir, and sometimes at night the sound from the animals being slaughtered comforts me, it makes me fall asleep. I enjoy my life in Shanghai, as the people are easy to manipulate, and you can have a splendid time playing the arrogant foreigner. I enjoy lying to Chinese people, especially the girls, and especially the ones who want to get married.

Ken – Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

46. My name is Luke.

I’m a person with low self-esteem. I don’t really like foreigners as they are pathetic desperate and impatient. I could apply this to all men, but I’m desperately seeking for a mate, so i remain positive. A few years ago I had my embryos frozen in a clinic. If I never marry I will eat them before I die.

I often dream of myself drowning in a sea of giant embryos which suddenly emerge from a dark underground cave which I discovered while scuba diving.

Being a very superstitious person I take this as a sign, so now I drink a lot and like to party every night, as the Chinese saying goes; ‘you will never know if you can wake up the next morning and put on your shoes’ . I’m thinking of a sex operation and gender change, as I’ve been so badly effected by men in relations, that I want to be with a woman, though not as an equal, but to be seen as a member of the dominant sex in Chinese society.

Ken – Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

45. My name is Judas.

I’m of a very serious character, my grandmother tells me I’m somewhat detached from myself, and ‘emotionally aloof’ is what I say to her. I often learn about new cultures and tell people I’ve travelled extensively, albeit I only left Shanghai once to visit my parents. One of my ex-boyfriends was French, and he caught me out once that I was telling him this little lie.

I have a habit of keeping chickens, and I name them after my foreign ex-boyfriends, eventually I cook them and make a dinner for friends. I’m too old now to marry, people joke “you’re married, available but pass your sellbydate”.

One of my hobbies is self-improvement or DI-MY as I call it. I have trained myself to learn new languages by waking up at 4am, studying all day, and do this for one month at a time. It doesn’t really work, but it makes me feel aloof and that I live some form of a life without lies.

Ken – Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

44. My name is Mark

I’m a paranoid person.

I carry small change and one photo in my pocket and walk backwards so I’m not always looking over my shoulder. Then I take out the photo and kiss it, it’s of my girlfriend, much safer to kiss an image of a woman in public, in case she is attacked while kissing. This action brightens my life, to control my public image and possible loss of money.

When I apply for jobs, I’m so worried the employers want something from me they are not telling in the job description, this paranoid behaviour means I have been out of a job for a long time now. I can easily blame these behaviour’s on my OCD. It effects my personal relations, as I need to see a psychologist to enable my relations with people, I cry every time I visit my behavioural analyst, though only when he mentions the word Dad.

Ken – Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

43. My name is Matthew

I’m a confused person.

I like to spend time on my own, I like to travel to see a film in another city, which I could easily have watch in my local cinema. So I consider myself a true urbanite, a man of the town, a dandy without the eye for smart attire.

It takes me a long time to understand anything. It took me five years to realize I was not in Beijing, and actually living in Shanghai.

I cannot read a book, and understand it, so I read the blurbs at the back of a book or DVD.

Reading sentences makes me more agile and flexible with my time.

To reflect and address these issues, to better comprehend my life decisions, I created a list. It’s so long now, consisting of so many objectives and rationale for certain decision making that I can’t understand it, and this confuses me.

Ken – Liquid Curiosity November 13th

 

42. My name is Mauricio. As a child, I wanted to be an airline pilot. The reason had nothing to do with flying a plane…I like to see the landscapes.

Patrice- Liquid Curiosity- November 13th

 

41. My name is Juan. My brother came to Shanghai for the Expo and stayed. I said, “What the fuck is in China!” I didn’t have an interest in coming to Asia. Then my brother sent me an ultra-sound photo showing his wife’s baby, and I said, “I’m going to Shanghai to meet my niece.” My plan was to stay a month and then go to Spain, but when I held the baby in my arms, I fell in love with her. A year later, I’m still here.

Patrice – Liquid Curiosity- November 13th

 

40. My name is Adan. Family is EVERYTHING! You cannot be sure of your life, but you can be sure of your family. I had a car accident once—you see? You can’t know what will happen, but I am sure of my family.

Patrice – Liquid Curiosity- November 13th

 

39. My name is Xiao Chen. I don’t have a vision now. I am not one of those people who has big visions. I am doing things but I don’t know the future. I treasure people and the time we spend with each other. My vision is fixed on this moment.

Patrice – Liquid Curiosity- November 13th

 

38. My name is Nick. One day, I was walking around the Former French Concession. I saw an old lady walking out of her house; she stumbled and nearly fell down, but I managed to catch her. I helped her stand up and put her shoe back on. She was so thankful, smiling and saying XieXie all the time, even though she was in a lot of pain. It seems that many older Shanghai people think that foreigners are unfriendly. Maybe I have changed the old lady’s opinion. I hope so.

Liquid Curiosity- November 13th

 

37. My name is Nora

A friend of mine brought me to the house where she was born, on a small Lilong on Huai Hai Lu. The door was open; we knocked, no one replied so we went inside. One of the neighbors met us. He remembered her as a child. She was born and lived with her family in one small room, no toilet, no bathroom. My friend confessed that during her childhood, she never once took a bath and it was the same for everyone she knew. When she had free time, she played with her friends, never thinking of a better life. Today she is an intelligent, beautiful young woman.

Liquid Curiosity- November 13th

 

36. My name is Nigel. I have lived in Hong Kong and Vietnam. I know Asians and the way they believe. I am used to the smells and the sounds of the street. We chose to live here in Shanghai and we love it. You need to understand the culture where you are living. I saw a Western guy crossing the street. A local Chinese guy was on a bicycle and he nearly touched the western guy as he was passing. The western guy made a move to hit him. The western guy was scared and it was an automatic reaction but in China, it’s cars first, then motorcycles, then bikes, and then people. Everybody should know that.

Liquid Curiosity- November 13th

 

35. My name is Mandy. I grew up in a communist country in the Eastern Block. My family moved to Holland. When I was 18, I moved to Paris to attend university and I stayed for a total of 8 years.

When I was little in my home country, we were only permitted to watch Eastern European films. When I was 9-years-old, I saw a king fu film. It was an illegal video. I had a huge crush on Bruce Lee. In fact, I was in love with him. There was only one video recorder in each neighborhood so all the kids would come together to watch. It was a huge event. My family thought I was crazy moving to China to learn Chinese. Thanks to my first love, Bruce Lee, I am still here.

Liquid Curiosity- November 13th

 

34. My name is Tanya. I was born in Russia. When I was 20, I went with two girlfriends on a Work Abroad experience. Our assignment was in Maryland. We flew from Moscow to JFK so that we could catch the connecting flight to Baltimore. We landed at night at JFK. New York looks so awesome at night. We all turned to each other saying, “Why should we even bother going to Maryland?!” and we got in a taxi instead of catching our connection. The cab driver asked us where we wanted to go but we knew nothing about New York City. The only thing we could think to say was “Manhattan.”

“But where in Manhattan? You got money?”

“It’s our first time and we have very little money.”

“I know where to take you and someone will speak Russian.”

He took us to the YMCA.

We all got jobs in a basement clothes shop on Broadway. Our job was to replace the labels that said “Made in China” with “Made in Italy.” We also changed size labels depending on demand. You want Medium? No problem. And we would exchange the L label for an M.

We were so lucky with that cab driver; he changed our lives.

Liquid Curiosity- November 13th

 

33. My name is Alexa. When I found out I was pregnant, I was a bit nervous, surprised…relieved…and secretive. I wanted to keep it to myself until the moment felt…safe.

Patrice –Liquid Curiosity – November 10th, 2016

 

32. My name is Alexa. I was an easy target and it left an imprint—“Slings and arrows…”—but I didn’t want to do the same things they did. This was high school—so…those girls were definitely more popular among the boys. I did have one good friend. I dedicated all my time to her. So, when she turned on me, saying stuff behind my back, I had no other friends to rely on. Lesson learned. Check.

Patrice –Liquid Curiosity – November 10th, 2016

 

31. My name is Alexa and I don’t know who was more traumatized, me, my baby, or the Chinese ladies peeking over the hedge. It was February and I took my baby to the park. I sat on a bench to breast-feed. Some elderly Chinese people came shuffling by to take a look. It was a bit embarrassing. Then, I had to change his dirty nappy.  I could hear the titter of concern as my audience impassively watched this fascinating anthropological display. Australian woman changing poopy nappy.  I was nervous and managed to get pooh on his clothes. Oh, god. I was going to have to go the full monty. By now my naked son was screaming and two heads popped up over the hedge behind me. The critique of my abysmal qualifications as a mother was coming from all sides.  I have to prove to them that I’m a good mom, so, I wrapped him in a blanket, jumped up and ran away. Living in China, I need to get a thicker skin.

Patrice –Liquid Curiosity – November 10th, 2016

 

30. My name is Christine.  I have no nationality.  But I love Italians. You stand and drink an espresso in a bar and you can have a great conversation, not a superficial one. It may develop into a friendship or just a bar friendship.  Otherwise, the country is a nightmare.  Nothing works.  Strikes all the time.  It takes forever to get things done.  You get to the post office and they have decided to close. It’s lunchtime.  So what can you do…. go to the café and have another great conversation, I guess.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – November 10th, 2016

 

29. My name is Christine.  In Switzerland everything is stuffier and organized.  Here, you never know what to expect.  When we had subzero temperatures in January and pipes froze the kids were sent home from school. Shimao’s elevators didn’t work so the kids had to go down the 47 floor building with water streaming down the stairs, so they needed to wear rubber boots. But that was a fun 3 days–who’s got a heater, what do we do with the kids, where do we eat.  Life is a lot juicier here.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – November 10th, 2016

 

28. My name is Lin.  I moved to New Zealand to study.  I spent six years there and Australia and eventually moved back.  I missed my grandma.  Those first few months back were rough.  I couldn’t go out.  I would get a headache from being in a crowded place.  There is less than one Chinese city in the whole country’s population of New Zealand.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – November 10th, 2016

 

27. My name is Lin.  Living in New Zealand and Australia definitely changed me.  I don’t like to hold things any more.  You know how sometimes Chinese prefer to be quiet and not really say much?  I am much more direct and open.  Also, you know, in China people like compare and see what other have.  But I prefer small happy.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – November 10th, 2016

 

26. My name is Lin.  Of course I have regrets. I regret having dated some of men.  Some were a complete waste of time.  Sometimes I regret having moved back to China.  People say that you can’t live your life without regrets.  I resent when they say that.  What bullshit of chicken soup that is.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – November 10th, 2016

 

25. My name is Vivian.  I first went to a boarding school when I was 8.  My parents eventually sent me to Europe for a semester when I was in primary school.  I know some people think that’s too young.  But I appreciate that they did that.  They gave me real fee-style space when I was little.  We always had lots of kids over from the neighborhood for a home party and we were allowed to run around and play freely.  My parents taught me how to think critically, write meaningfully, and read forbidden books.  Eventually I started my own magazine that was banned.  I covered sensitive topics, such as political issues and love and sex at college.  You know, “Stay hungry, stay foolish.”

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – November 10th, 2016

 

24. My name is Magnus,

I live with my family in Shanghai and I am a stay-at-home Dad.

I worry about the pollution for my kids. It could always be worse, I guess. At least we don’t live in Beijing.

Back home in Sweden, we live out in the countryside and we can breathe fantastic fresh air.

During the long winter evenings, we gather together in a small cozy room and light lots and lots of candles.

Probably the fumes from the candles in such a small place is far worse than the air in Shanghai

Susan –Liquid Curiosity – November 10th

23. My name is Catherine

My Mother was an alcoholic so I went to live with my Father and his wife when I was eleven. My Stepmother, Julie, brought me up. She wanted me to do beauty pageants. This is not who I am, not even close…not then, not now. But it was that or returning to the chaos of an alcoholic home so I stayed with them and played pretty for Julie: The gym classes, the manicures, the blond highlights.

When I was in college, the FBI informed me that Julie and my father had taken out loans of $120, 000 in my name, my Dad went to jail for it. He and Julie will owe money till the end of their days.

I do have great posture though. Julie was always nagging my about sitting up straight and pulling my shoulders back so I do have to thank her for that.

Susan –Liquid Curiosity – November 10th

 

22. My name is Cecilia

I have been in Shanghai for nearly 3 years. My husband and I came with our 2 kids when our youngest was only 4 months old. I had to take the baby with me when I went to the Chinese hospital for the medical checkup in order to get the China residents visa.

They did the blood test, then I went to get my eyes tested. After, dressed in a hospital robe, waiting in line for some other test, the nurse came up to me. She said Bao Bao. I said yes, this is my bao bao, she is 4 months old. She shook her head, pointed to my belly and said, “Baby there”.

That’s how I learned that I was pregnant. Now we have 2 girls and a boy

Susan –Liquid Curiosity – November 10th

 

21. My name is Emile.  When I am in Paris, people ask me where I am from, even though I am from Paris.  But I don’t feel Parisian any more.  I look up and I am amazed at how low the buildings are.  And then I walk into dog shit.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

20. My name is David. What do I worry about?  I worry about China mixing the culture of face and of consumerism.  It is a toxic mix.  People are traveling, but if they don’t post picture on WeChat, it’s like they have never travelled at all.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

19. My name is Ethan.  I respect how some educated older Chinese detach themselves from the world and dedicate themselves to the study of history, poetry and calligraphy.  I find that very respectful. Perhaps it’s linked to the things I value.  I am French.  I can see myself living my whole life in Asia.  My mother would be devastated.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

18. My name is Gerald.  My great uncles fought in the World War One and passed away at age 97 and 102.  My father got diagnosed with cancer and passed away after two months at the age of 68.  I, too, am battling cancer.  I am 50.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

17. My name is Leon.  I was 20 the first time I had sex with a man.  With a hotel bellboy.  I wrote down every detail in my notebook.  My other found it and read it.  Of course.  She was hysterical.  Said that I was crazy.  My older brother said, “You idiot.  Don’t write it down next time.”

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

16. My name is Michel.  My best friend is my older disabled brother.  When I was a bit older and more mature I realized how special he is and learned to appreciate and love him.  Before that I was ashamed of him, just like my parents were.  I used to wish he was dead.

Artemis – Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

15. I am Dom. Dom is a narcissistic person. Who is confused at times in describing his strengths and weaknesses. His mobile phone has no vacant slots for more contacts, so he deleted them all. With his habit of contradicting himself, he believes it is thoroughly down to language barriers. His narcissism excels when he begins to reflect on my status in society, as my idea of asking who he is and what he has to contribute is done through by continuously watching himself in a loop on a Wechat video.

Ken –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

14. I am called Jack presumed there would be no others like me in all of China. I was forced to interact with people that looked like me.

My Shanghai dream has been realized, through the recognition I receive from singing one particular song in Chinese to a local Mandarin speaking audience. I believe fame awaits me by only being able to sing one particular song again and again and again. Then fortune will follow.

Ken –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

13. My name is Christin. I have lived in Shanghai for eight months. It isn’t the physical distance, but the disconnection that hurts. Isn’t that ironic? Disconnection? Did we even use that word before? Before we got connected? When I was a child in South Dakota people said, “Oh, we lost touch,” or “We haven’t been in touch for years…” …”Let’s stay in touch.” A tactile—metaphor, or whatever you call it. Touch—in touch—a kind of intimacy even in distance, or at least an implication of intimacy. Those were the terms we used to mediate our relationships. You can’t really be neutral in a touch, a touch…I think it is always specific, isn’t it? Gentle, rough, kind, cruel, pulls, pushes. I met my husband on line—we connected.

Patrice –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

12. My name is Christin. Once I was traveling in Brazil and a taxi driver told me that he didn’t like Americans. Secretly, I thought “Why do people feel so comfortable expressing their dislike of Americans, to Americans? Does this happen to other nationalities?”—but outwardly I just smiled and asked him, “Why?”, bracing myself for the usual litany of complaints about our government, our capitalism, our war machine, our gun violence, our…But, he said, “Because every time I have an American customer they slam the door! They’re so rude!” Huh? Oh. So, I explained to him that car doors in the U.S. are much heavier than in Brazil and Americans just want to make sure the is closed properly. The taxi driver burst into a big smile and thanked me—now he understood. I really liked the feeling of mediating that understanding. We had this moment of perfect understanding—a Namaste moment…touch…connection.

Patrice –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

11. My name is David. I love big cities in general. I have many acquaintances. I get inspired when meeting new people. It’s very easy meeting new people but harder to maintain the relationship. I guess it’s the cost of living in a big city. Yeah, sometimes I do feel lonely. You can still be lonely even when you are surrounded by people. People are busy. They come and go…Still, I’m quite ok to live alone.

Patrice –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

10. My name is David. What I really need is an investor who trusts me and believes I can be successful one day. Right now it’s all about building my resume and reputation. Ideally I’d like to sing in some kind of weekly show or nightly show. Now that I am singing in Chinese, people really like it. Y’know, if I hadn’t come to China I might never have thought about becoming a professional singer. In America we only care if they sing well. But here in China a laowai sings in Chinese and it is a big deal and people give me a lot of credit. So, y’know, it seems like achieving my goals might be easier in China.

Patrice –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

9. My name is Cecilia. My father is a very important man in the business world. But now he is retired. And it is difficult for him to be someone else other than a businessman. He is not the boss anymore, he has to reinvent himself. I feel like I have become my father… only 30 years early. I don’t have a job and I feel lost. I cannot even describe myself outside what used to be my professional life. I am a mother, a wife and a friend. But I cannot see myself in those terms. Like my father, I have to reinvent myself.

Sharon –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

8. My name is Eva. On my first time in Shanghai, I got depressed. I managed to make one good friend, who eventually left Shanghai. I hung out with men who just wanted to get laid. I lost my job. I thought the problem was Shanghai. Jobless, I went back home to my mom’s. She gave it to me straight. She said, “You are a wreck, you let yourself go, you drink and smoke too much, you are a loser. The problem isn’t Shanghai, it’s you.” I looked around me and realized that everything is so orderly, and everyone has got their shit together. I wanted that too. So I went back to Shanghai. Here is my battleground and I am going to claim my victory and get myself a picture-perfect life!

Sharon –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

7. My name is Anna. China made me godless. I was a Catholic, I used to be so conservative. I was very religious before China. Now I am with a whole new set of friends and they don’t share the same commitment. It was very hard to go to church here, and there is no sense of community in the church, so I stopped going. I felt like my whole life was just checking boxes to make God happy. Not anymore, I don’t have to check my list. I know I cannot go back to my old life. I just have to find my spirituality some other way.

Sharon –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

6. My name is Chris and I just let my girlfriend of five years walk away from me. We dated when she was studying abroad. I followed her back to China. I was just starting with a job then, I did not have a lot of money. Her parents wanted the whole shebang — the apartment, the car, the big salary, the glamorous life for their daughter, probably married to a Chinese man. I am not that guy. Her mother was ill with cancer and she just wanted to see her daughter married. So my girlfriend said: marry me by October 1st or I leave. And I let her. I let her leave.

Sharon –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

5. My name is Mei. I am 23 years old and I am a business owner. I don’t know much about business though. No degree whatsoever. I just do what I have to do. I don’t spend time strategizing. I solve issues as they come, learn as I go. I don’t want to worry. I have a friend who was just diagnosed with brain tumor. So young. Makes me think, maybe tomorrow I won’t even wake up. So I don’t worry about the future. I just work and do what I have to do.

Sharon –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

4. My name is Elsa. I’m German and live in Shanghai. Life is always both god and bad. My son, who was born in Shanghai, died in Germany of a common flu. You don’t die of a flu anymore. Since, we are looking for our missing part. Of course we didn’t find it. But we found a different part, maybe good maybe not.

We returned to Shanghai trying to re-find here our happy times and wholeness by walking-on the well-known beaten streets. I was looking for myself and my child. I didn’t find us there. I found another “me” on the streets of ever changing Shanghai. I found fulfillment. I started saving moments and creating a new puzzle.

Shula –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

3. I am called Silke. You look at me and find it difficult to understand?! I can see it on your face!  You should sense it, not understanding. It’s not a brain process. You don’t want seeing your own child suffer and dying. I realized there are things in life so hard to take, that you could not imagine how to survive afterwards.

Now, we have our new life that was born out of deep suffering. I was looking for energy and completeness. I’m a mellower person, more forgiving and enjoying the little things in life, especially my children.

I work with people who had traumatic life events. Helping others, for me, it’s a two folded matter, a mixture of my own feelings and what I really want for my clients.

Shula –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

2. My name is Michael.

One of the things that I learned when I was travelling around so much was how to pack a bag. I became an expert at packing: how to get the bag balanced, organizing and compartmentalizing the contents, keeping the dirty and clean clothes separate, the stuff I need on top, the rarely used stuff on the bottom, smaller bags inside the bigger bags.

This is the way I manage my life: the impression that I want others to have is on top for easy access, the true me hidden all the way down. My home life balanced with my work life on either side.

And then there is the dirty laundry…. So much of it.

Susan –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

1. My name is Michael.

I spent some time in Brazil in a dangerous city.

You don’t want to attract attention; you want to look as local as possible. I knew that I had nailed it when I’d pass people and they would check to see if I’d picked their pockets.

I was always bullied as a child but suddenly being considered as someone who could do damage gave me a great feeling of power. I had never felt safer.

(I felt invincible. I got a taste for it. I wanted recognition, I wanted more.

It was then that I started to hurt people)

Susan –Liquid Curiosity – October 26th, 2016

 

My name is Rose,

I want some change.

I am fed up of waking up at 6:35. Living closer to the school would be better.

I want some change.

I am fed up of my kids and their friends invading my space. Having another room would be nice.

I want some change.

I am fed up of farewell parties. Everybody has gone. Celebrating our departure would be great.

I want some change.

I am fed up of noise. Living in peace would be a blessing.

I want some change.

I am fed up of the gossiping mummies at the soccer field of Dulwich. Their accent is so perfect. Making a cross on English would be better.

I want some change.

Anne Fostier – Les Stylos en Villégiature –October 5th  2016

 

I am Benoit

I live my life alone. I am working on myself. I would like to stop getting angry, I would like to keep my stress under control, I would like to fight against my own nature as an introvert, I would like to manage my emotions, I would like to be tolerant, I would like to adapt and become flexible, I would like be open-minded and serene. I would like to let it go. I would like … Not to be me.

Emilie R- Les stylos en villégiature –October 5th 2016